Confession

Sometimes, I don't want to see other kids' birthday party pictures/Christmas pictures/playdate pictures. It's pure jealousy and selfishness. Thankfully, I said "sometimes". I would really not like me as a person if it was an "always" thing.

I've really been trying to figure out why this *sometimes* bothers me more now than before and the only thing that I can come up with is this: When Ethan was 2, he was still in 12-18 months clothes. He was still so babyish. You don't get upset if a baby goes to a party and just wants to sit there or get into things...you don't care if a baby doesn't care about opening presents.

Now, that Ethan is obviously not a baby anymore- even by appearance, it is just harder. And, I have a slight suspicion that it is just going to get harder and harder as he gets older. *sigh* So, prepare for random "confessions and pity parties" because that's just how things are gonna roll when it comes to my emotions. Please don't judge, bare with me.