Today sucked. Ethan was horrible. I questioned being a good mother to him. All of this sensory stuff is throwing me over the edge. The lack of communication and acting out was just too much for me today. I cried...a lot. My poor Kenyan friends- I arrived to Olive Garden a mess. At least I know that they will pray for us.
I just keep thinking that I have ZERO reason to complain- there are a lot of other people out there going through a heck of a lot more than us, but then I fall into another crying spell. Ethan has just been through too much already. I just want him to be able to be a little boy without all of this other stuff (ie. PDD, tethered cord). I feel like I am in my own world. Not even my local Ds mom's know what we are facing.
Ecki- I know you're reading this...we must chat! ;-)
I also think that the idea of his surgery next week really got to me too. I know that he will be fine, it's just probably the most serious surgery that he's ever had and I am freaking out a little.
Going to bed. Hopefully, tomorrow morning will bring me back my happy, loveable son.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
This sux.
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Kristen, I wish I could give you a BIG hug! I'll call you tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteHope tomorrow is a much better day!!
ReplyDeleteYeah, that whole nonverbal thing stinks, especially if there's something wrong and they can't tell you so you have to guess. Sigh.
ReplyDeleteIt gets better, you just have to figure out what communication system works.
If you want to drop me an email with your phone number, I'll try to give you a call, especially since this is worth getting over my phone phobia, LOL.
I'm sorry you are feeling down. Praying things get better.
ReplyDeleteAwww, K I am so sorry I've been out of the loop...I am hoping your having a better day today! Call me when you have time!
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