Yep, the biological one. Bad timing. Well, it's been ticking for a while but it's really been bad the past few weeks. I want Ethan to have a sibling so bad. I want it for him. I feel that he deserves it. I can't imagine my life without my sisters and brother and I think that Ethan having a sibling would do wonders for him. Have you noticed the I and not we? Of course, me being unemployed now doesn't help things!
I never thought that my children would be so far apart in age. I mean, only having Ethan during the time of our move and his leukemia treatment was a huge blessing. We were able to concentrate solely on him. Scott feels that if we have another baby, we are taking away from Ethan. He deserves all of our love and attention. So, I am torn because that then makes me feel like I want to take away from Ethan. That is not the case!
I watched some friends in church yesterday with their new baby girl. I watched them cuddle and smile at her. I almost cried. I want it again.
Part of this is selfish for me. I miss being pregnant. I want to experience it again. The other part is definitely for Ethan.
Monday, April 14, 2008
The Clock is ticking...
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I think that you guys should do it. I think it would be awesome for Ethan, and for you guys too!
ReplyDeleteI agree Kristen, I think it would be a good thing for ALL three of you!
ReplyDeleteit definitely would benefit ethan, not take away. I hope you will be able to have another one!!
ReplyDeleteHi there! Saw your blog address on the ds/leukemia yahoo group, and was reading about Ethan. He's a cutie. When I read this I just had to respond. I too have major baby fever, but my dh is completely against it as well. I think it's the leukemia AND the Ds that scares them. My DH is fearful we can't handle anything else like this. I hate living life in fear that something else is going to happen. Good luck, you know we have a little more control over the baby thing than they do;)
ReplyDeleteCarey
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