Angry

I'm angry.  I've been angry but haven't really acknowledged it openly.  So, here I am to acknowledge publicly that I am ANGRY. 

I am angry over something I had no control over.  Someone close to me aborted recently.  By law, that was her right to do, HOWEVER...

• Do NOT continue to brag about how you want to have a BABY so bad with ___________
• Do NOT say that you would go through any amount of pain to have said BABY
• Do NOT continually have unprotected sex more than bunnies do with _____________ and then act shocked that you got pregnant with a BABY
• Do NOT cry to me about not having money to pay for said BABY
• Do NOT tell me that ________ is never going to get a job to take care of you and said BABY
• Do NOT tell me that you love the BABY and that it was conceived out of love

Do NOT tell me all of these things (and more) and then decide that it's all just too much.

Why do I care so much?  Why am I so angry?  I'll tell you why- it is infuriating that people like this can reproduce and throw the baby away when so many people want babies and can't for one reason or another.  That includes me at this moment.  How badly I want another baby- for me, my husband, but mostly for Ethan.  We have waited for many reasons and I am fearful that it may never happen.  So yeah, I'm angry.  What I would give to be pregnant and here this person knew what she was doing and used abortion as her birth control when her distorted fantasy became reality. 

From day one, she referred to the baby as a BABY.  She flushed her baby down the toilet.  I would have taken care of that baby if given the chance. 


*Really don't want to have any abortion debates.  I understand the whole woman's right to choose deal, but this is personal.  This was no OOPS.  That baby deserved life.